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Cake day: January 24th, 2025

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  • Had a tour of the arts in the city last saturday when many museums opened their doors at night as a special event. A lot of paintings were about the golden age of Antwerp around the 1500-1600 period in which it was one of, if not the most important city in the world. It was the largest European city after Paris at the time.

    You’d think: ‘wow that’s cool’ until you realise many of these things were achieved because of colonialism and slave trade. As is always the case in Europe.

    My (near) burnout phase seems to continue. I hoped after the weekend was done and after spending a week at home it would be better but I can’t shake the anxious feeling I have, which sucks. There’s also this feeling of guilt that comes with it, for me at least, because I keep thinking about how so many people in this world have it worse than I do and they keep on going, so why can’t I? But that’s not a good mentality to have, of course.








  • I’m crashing out harder than I expected. On day three of staying at home right now thinking it was going to be a little break to prevent a further crashing but I’m starting to wonder if it isn’t too late already. I’m just really tired and emotional. Like, even standing up requires an unreasonable amount of effort. I have one task for the day of picking up a package for my partner and it’s stressing me out. But at the same time I don’t want to sleep or stay in the house for the entire day.

    It’s a really strange experience to say the least. Looking back there were definitely some signs that I should slow down but honestly I expected a more gradual change in mental state. This just feels like hitting a wall that was suddenly there. Fuck this system man.